Of graduation...

It's more than just a dream... it's for real.

I graduated from high school.

My last video lesson was watched, my last Bible lecture was listened to, my last exam was handed in.  And now it's over. 

...so many mixed feelings. excitement and terror. freedom and fear. This moment I've been working my heart out towards for the last twelve years has come and gone.  boom.  It's over... now what?

I can't go back.  I must move forward.  ...but where? ...and how?

It's a bit of an unsettling feeling... but right now, I'm in a time of waiting.  a time of learning and growing and strengthening.  a time of putting my roots down deep and being confident in who God is.  It's a time of waiting, yes... but it is not a time of dormancy.  It is not a time of doing nothing.  It's a time of action.  There is work to do, even while I wait.

I keep remembering this quote I shared from back here...

I want to get more comfortable being uncomfortable. 

I want to get more confident being uncertain. 

I don’t want to shrink back just because something isn’t easy. 

I want to push back, and make more room in the area between I can’t and I can.  -Kristin Armstrong

Part of the work I feel God calling me to in this waiting stage of life is evangelism. It's not comfortable.  It's uncertain.  But it's God's heart for me. 

On Friday, I'm leaving for a ten-day camp called Soldiers of the Cross.  It's an intensive course on evangelism located in Ohio for a small group of youth.  I feel unprepared and inadequate.  I'm not enough.  But I'm going because God asked me to. and God is enough.  He is prepared.  He is adequate. 

It's not about me.  It's not about doing hard, uncomfortable, uncertain things just because it sounds cool and good and spiritual.  No, it's a calling.  Not everyone is called to evangelism... but everyone is called to be involved in spreading the Gospel some way.  Will you involve yourself by fasting and praying for me?
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